Fictional characters make me depressed uwu

    I'm the kind of person that has lived a relatively normal life (besides being a closet weeb, of course). I'm a 100% side character, no, 100% character that only gets one line in the entire anime/movie/whatever the heck you're thinking of right now. Now, that's not to say I'm uninteresting, I mean, I'm writing this amazing blog, am I right? And honestly, if you take away my morals, I could possibly be a villain (#yandere4life). Unfortunately, I am your average, goody two shoes, Christian minecraft server.

    And if you were wondering, it's not just my personality that makes me incapable of being a main character, it is also my lack of an interesting back story. Both of my parents are alive, I know them, and we have a great relationship. I get along as well with my siblings as one would expect. I love cuddling with the pets (yes that includes the fish, don't ask). And sure, there are main characters who live normally until something crazy happens to them, but what's the probability of that?

    To sum up what I've said so far, I'm a completely normal person (when I say normal, know that I believe there is no "true normal", and there shouldn't be. I am extremely weird, shy, crackhead, etc, which is the best kind of "normal" I can be). However and unfortunately, I cannot say the same for some of my friends. They have had some troubling times, some sad backstories, some unfortunate events happen to them. Every now and then, we're having normal, funny, chill conversations, and somehow they suddenly bring up their tragic past or something seriously depressing. Let me tell you, I'M AN EXTREMELY AWKWARD PERSON. I CANNOT SOCIALIZE AT ALL. I have NO CLUE what to say to them when they bring these things up. 

    And this is where the title of this post comes in. In anime, books, movies, the characters always know what to say to their troubled friends, or can at least come up with something to say to make them feel better. This is COMPLETELY unrealistic, at least within my experiences, since the authors/writers have about as long as they need to come up with the perfect response. In real life, the longer you wait to reply, the more awkward it becomes. Me being me, I have no idea what to say, and I usually just end up letting them rant all out, and depending on the seriousness of it, I either send a "that's rough buddy" or they end up apologizing for dumping it all on me like that, and I can usually manage well enough after that. That kinda sounds like I'm a terrible friend, but honestly, as long as I'm there for them, doing my best to cheer them on, actually listening to them, I believe that it helps. I hope that it helps. I will always be there for my friends, no matter what. 

    Yes, my dear friends reading this, I do realize that this probably sounds cheesy. But hey cheese is delicious. Reverting back to my previously silly tone, I do sometimes manage to accidentally say something that makes them feel better. "Accidentally!?!?" Yes. Accidentally. For all those personality quizzes that ask, "your friend is upset, what do you do?" I usually answer with "I make a joke to make them feel better." But in real life, I feel like making a joke is insensitive and also kinda forced. However, sometimes I miraculously make a joke without realizing it, and it actually makes them feel better. No clue how I do it if you want to learn this skill. I guess just let it come naturally? Idk.

    Another thing, I'm the kind of person to lay on my bed in the middle of the night, staring up into darkness, trying to imagine all the different things I could've said to them, how they would've responded, seeing which one would be best. I spend hours not necessarily regretting what I've said in these conversations, but imagining their potential. I guess I'm hoping this improves my social skills (I don't think it does T-T). 

    To conclude, this in nowhere near what my usual posts are like lol. And friends!!! I am NOT complaining about y'all! I love listening to you guys, and it makes me so happy that you trust me enough to share your life and feelings with me!

Love you all, my fellow weebs! And thank you for reading 😘

You thought this would be another weird, meaningless post, but it was me, Dio!!!